Purgatory, Tantra and Bliss...

I thought I was saving someone....I thought I had the strength to carry the both of us through and out...on the back of my great wings I thought for sure I could take care of us both...shield us from all pain and glide us safely through purgatory and into bilss...I didn't just think this, I KNEW it...

I knew I had the strength for I had been building it for centuries...after all, I was great...and this is what I was made for...

or so I thought...

but I was wrong...I didn't have the strength, nor did I have the fortitude...I barely made it out alive...

but I went to hell...journeyed to the underworld...did my sadhana in the charnal houses of Purgatory....I bathed in the refining fires...when fire is water, all duality ceases to be....and the liquid fire burned away the duality...

the light, the dark...

the right, the wrong...

the black, the white...

the male, the female...

the you, the me...

the impermanence...

until I was only this...this that I am....finely distilled and refined energy....shakti...I became one with the liquid fire...taking it in...making it part of who I am...in this incarnation...

and I lived there...in the charnal houses of Purgatory...worshiping on the living and walking corpses of hell...prefecting my sadhana...

and when I was done with hell, and it with me, I began my journey out...I broke my tether and set myself free...but I brought something back with me....

you see, there wasn't a spot left untouched within or without by that fire's tongue...burn scars and singe marks decorate this body of mine...and proudly I wear them...and, deep within, sparks of that liquid flame caught hold...and it still burns within me...

I brought them back for you....to burn away your impermanence...to strip away all that you are not...to set you free...without a trip to hell...you have hell right in front of you...all you have to do is ask...

it will hurt...there will be pain...but in the end, you will have your own fire...and it will be worth it...

I promise...

to go back to stardust....

“Success is imminent and will not be held off.”